PapaGod, I love you and all I want to do in this life is be like you
To make you smile
But I cannot lie. I am seething on the inside
I think I am even finding it easier to forgive but forgetting? ......How do I do that Lord?
How do I forget this person that would hate me so much as to want to drag down so many families?
I don't know how but I know you do.
And that is why I come to you.
It's easy to forgive this time cos I dug deep into my heart where your love resides......
But please teach me, help me, lead me to a place where I can forget.
Thank you Papa as I come to you in Jesus Christ's name.
Amen.
And Papa, please all I have done, no matter how big or how little that has led to this situation , forgive me and more important, SHOW me but NOW I know better. I will not change who I am for I am molding myself on you BUT I will commit more than ever to be wiser, more discerning . I am so sorry for all who have been affected by this. So sorry. I pray you send restoration to all of our hearts and homes.
Thank you for always being there. Thank you for always standing by me. Thank you for always finding people to send to me to let me know.
PapaGod? I just thank you for you.
This is a H-A-R-D prayer. "That I might forget". Having an open heart surgery is hard enough for forgiveness, then you need to give your head freely for open head surgery to be able to forget. It is hard. My Father and My God...hmmmm, help me in this department too, hmmmm but LORD we submit ourselves for your perfection, your perfection alone!
ReplyDeleteIt is May 2012 and I am farther away from where I was then Lizzie. Still, a work in progress but rather than a raging fire of anger, its just embers now.......not of anger. More of deep disappointment......
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