It's Been a Whole Year PapaGod!

Papa, you amaze me. And I amaze myself by the number of times I still shake in the face of stuff in spite of all you have done, do and continue to do in my life. Are you not the one that kept your son, my son AK in college for a whole year? Was I there? Was it not you who watched over him and kept him and caused him to excel? What did I do? Nothing! It was all you. Yet, I still manage to fear. Forgive me Papa, even as you accept my thanks today.

I am beyond grateful for all you have done in his life, my life, our lives. You are the forever faithful Father and I do not want any other. Please help me to look to your first when ever storms begin to blow cos the truth of the matter is. In you, I will always overcome. In you, AK has overcome one year in a land so far away, adjusting to new things and a new way of life and study. Yet he did it. But not him but you in him.

Baba, modupe gidi ganni. Please, as you have done, continue to do for him, for his sister and brother and for all the children in our family. I use him, AK, as a point of contact to all those kids I know, let your favour and grace ever be upon them. Regardless of what we see in this world, they will shine to your glory in Jesus name. Amen.

Thanks again Daddy. I am grateful. Love you. But know you love me more.

Thanks For Being My Spine

Thank you PapaGod for being
The wind beneath my sails
The spring in my step
The swing in my arms
The spine in my back that helps me stand tall, confident, proud.
Regardless
Yes, in spite of all that swirls within my head.
You are my reason for standing.

Thank you PapaGod for being
The light of my life
The strength in my neck
The tilt to my head that makes me look serene and calm
Even when I am not.
Yes, in spite of all the lies the enemy tries to sell me
You are the steel in my limbs that keeps me solid.
Thank you. There can never be anyone like you in my life
Never.

Thank You PapaGod.

Thank you so much Lord.
That's all I come to say today, after so long
Thank you.
You have been amazing
You have been outstanding
You have been simply the best
So I come to thank you
For what you have done and especially
For who you are and most especially
For showing me who you are
In my life.
Thank you.
I love you Lord
For I know, without a doubt that you love me waaaaaay more.
Accept my thanks Papa as I offer them to you in Christ Jesus's name.
Amen

Exhaling......

Daddy, thank you. I am exhaling.
What a frightful time but I can see clearly now
That through it all, you were always with me
Never flinching.
Always loving.
As only you can.
Daddy, thank you. I am exhaling.

In you
Out me
Good bye to jati jati!
Hello to plenty sometin!

PapaGod, please can you do me just one favour
I know you will cos its just the way you are
Please keep the love burning NEW
Out with the old and in with the new
Daddy, thank you for bringing me to this place
where I can exhale.

I love you.Daddy and oh, please one more thing.
As you have promised, let Saturday rock to the high heavens
In Jesus name. Please?
Mwaah!

That I Might Forget

PapaGod, I love you and all I want to do in this life is be like you
To make you smile
But I cannot lie. I am seething on the inside
I think I am even finding it easier to forgive but forgetting?  ......How do I do that Lord?
How do I forget this person that would hate me so much as to want to drag down so many families?
I don't know how but I know you do.
And that is why I come to you.
It's easy to forgive this time cos I dug deep into my heart where your love resides......
But please teach me, help me, lead me to a place where I can forget.
Thank you Papa as I come to you in Jesus Christ's name.
Amen.
And Papa, please all  I have done, no matter how big or how little that has led to this situation , forgive me and more important, SHOW me but NOW I know better. I will not change who I am for I am molding myself on you BUT I will commit more than ever to be wiser, more discerning . I am so sorry for all who have been affected by this. So sorry. I pray you send restoration to all of our hearts and homes.

Thank you for always being there. Thank you for always standing by me. Thank you for always finding people to send to me to let me know.

PapaGod? I just thank you for you.

I Don't Need to Understand

Papa, so much is going on and I am trying hard not to get alarmed
I don't understand much of anything and my head is just spinning
But it's OK actually cos
I don't need to understand it all
I just need to hide under you, that's all
And I will


I mean how does one explain all of this? I am between and betwixt
I am almost beginning to think I am in a dream and this cannot all be real
But it's OK actually cos
I don't need to understand it all
I just need to hold on to your hand, that's all
And I am

For if the set time has indeed come
Then sweet PapaGod, I shall not run, nor shall I fall
I may not grab any of it and my head might be spinning and my
Heart thumping, but it's really OK, you see cos
I am holding on to my dear JC and as long as he is with me
I don't need to understand it all
I just need to let go and let God.
And I shall

Lord, You are Good To Me

My Lord, you are too good to me
It is clear that when you do for me, you don't look at me
If you do, all you see is your son, Jesus Christ
Cos Lord, you are too good to me.
But I am not complaining Papa
I am so grateful for your love that just knows no bounds
It is too good to me.

My Lord, you are too kind to me
It is sure that when you move for me, it is not me you see
Clearly, it is your son, my Saviour you are considering
For after all, he did die to give me plenty
But still it makes me wonder how I could be so blest
I am so amazed by how you do more than I even ask
Way too much for me.

Still, I humbly accept it ALL Papa
Yes, I accept it all with a promise to always live my life for you
Knowing full well that even my lifetime will not cover
The cost of your love.....Cos it is just too much, too good.
To me.