I Am Tired To My Bones

I am tired to my bones
But thank you Lord cos I have bones and they are not broken
Not one

I am covered in sweat and grime
But thank you Lord cos the home I have been cleaning is mine
All mine

My back hurts and I think my feet are swollen
But thank you Lord cos it felt good to clean my house my way
All day

My hair is still a mess and my nails even worse
But O Lord, thank you for the hope of tomorrow. As long as you give me life. I can fix all that. Tomorrow

My 2012 was not really as I wanted it to be.
But then again, my 2012 was much more than I thought it would be. So thank you for amazing me. Still.

My children still get on my nerves sometimes.
But, come on, Lord, thank you, I HAVE children to grate on my nerves.
To love

My mgm and I are in  love/strangle relationship
But thank you PapaGod for our love trumps our desire to strangle each and every time!
All the time

I have not seen my sister and my brother in way too long and it hurts and I miss them
But then again, I feel them daily in my heart and that is closer than any plane ride can get me!
And it's free

*sighing and exhaling* Dear Fathermine, I am so tired, tired to my bones, even in some parts of my heart. YET, there is room, always room for thanks.
To You.

Yes, I am tired. To my bones
But I still have enough left in me to DARE TO BELIEVE  that what is behind me cannot hold a light to what is before me in 2013! And that is balm for my tired bones!

Way Maker, Do Your Thing

First of all PapaGod, thank you for giving me peace about my tomorrow. It has not been easy but I am getting better and keeping my peace about the future. I am grateful.

Thank you too for this door that you have caused to open for me. I was really surprised but then again, that is how you are. I brag on your name and appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. Papa, since you are the one doing this thing, could you please perfect it and make it easy and stress free. I don't need to tell you about the finances of this home right now. You know all about it so having to walk through this door you have opened will take some doing. YOUR doing. So please, Way-maker,  do your thing. Do what only you can do. Show me that you are God in my life. In Jesus name, I am asking you.

That is really all I have to say about this. I am going back to chilling. Cos I promised not to fret about tomorrow. As you well know, if you don't do your thing, this way you have made, I will not be able to step into it. So PapaGod, my life is in your capable hands. As for me, I just want to be the best me in YOU for my family and myself. To the glory of your name.

Love you Lord but thank you for loving me way more.

Exhaling......

Daddy, thank you. I am exhaling.
What a frightful time but I can see clearly now
That through it all, you were always with me
Never flinching.
Always loving.
As only you can.
Daddy, thank you. I am exhaling.

In you
Out me
Good bye to jati jati!
Hello to plenty sometin!

PapaGod, please can you do me just one favour
I know you will cos its just the way you are
Please keep the love burning NEW
Out with the old and in with the new
Daddy, thank you for bringing me to this place
where I can exhale.

I love you.Daddy and oh, please one more thing.
As you have promised, let Saturday rock to the high heavens
In Jesus name. Please?
Mwaah!

For Inner Peace, I Thank You Lord!

The wind is howling
The storm is raging
Yet in my heart, I have inner peace
Thank you Father, my Jehovah Shalom

The pot is empty
The vat is dry
Yet in my heart, I have inner peace
Thank your Jesus, my Prince of Peace

Life seems so uncertain
What next? What direction?
I don't need to know for sure
For the Holy Spirit, the one who will guide me
Into all things, He is in my heart
Giving me inner peace.

Father, I thank you. In the name of Jesus Christ
I thank you.

Lord, I Am Standing!

Father, Lord, thank you for this day
Thank you for just letting me be here
Thank you for taking care of all my needs
Thank you for letting me know that you are near.
Thank you for letting me know that I am yours.
Always.

Today has been a bit hard but through it all
I have encouraged myself with the knowledge of
Who you are to me
What you mean to me
Where you have taken me
Why I can stand so full of peace.

Yes, Lord today, I confirm to you that
I am standing on your promises
And I am not shaking.

Praise be to your name!
For grace to stand when the wind blows!
Thank you Lord. Thank you Jesus! Thank you Comforter and Encourager!
Thank you Divine Three in One!